Wedding Week!

I cannot say that I have been counting down the days for my own wedding, but I can say I am excited that the week is finally here. I am ready to wear my dress and dancing shoes, ready to party my boohiney off, and ready to have this wonderful celebration with my honey. It has been a long, difficult, trying, rewarding, exhausting, learning experience. Time did not fly by this year, it crept along, freaking me out the whole way.

Now, I have everyone telling me I am "the most calm bride in the world." I think that is because I am not allowing myself to sweat the small stuff. I know things are going to go wrong and be stressful, and the more I remind myself of that, the more I become ok with it.

I have watched a ton of "Say Yes to the Dress" episodes, as well as David Tutera's show, and I dream of all the luxury and grandeur of those weddings, but I am glad I am not going through all it would take to make that happen.

I want to show my weight loss developments. Hope you're all proud of me!

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HAVE A GREAT WEEK!! GOBBLE GOBBLE! THANK THE LORD FOR HOLIDAYS AND FAMILY

What's With This "Count Down" Crap!

Everyone from my coworkers to Macys.com is reminding me to countdown to my wedding day. I don't want to. I know when it is, and I don't need any more pressure about it. I am really excited, but nervous at the same time.

I love my Matthew, and I am so surprised he has stood by my side through my 7 months of crazy whacked outness... Our wedding will be beautiful and probably go pretty smoothly. My 2 best friends have also gotten married in the past month.

Ashley's wedding was gorgeous and I had a great time, but it was full of drama and madness. She handled it like a champ and looked amazing the whole way through. Heather's Vegas wedding was crazy madness and full of running around and getting things organized. I did have the time of my life that weekend, but man I have never been that exhausted. Heather (just like Ashley), held it together like a superstar and looked flawless every step of the way. I hope, that if I am faced with drama and disaster, I can be half as strong as they were and make it through it all while smiling.

I love my friends and family, especially those that have stayed by my side and truly been there for me. Without them, I would be lost.

YAAAAY! 17 Days. Now Macys, Target, The Knot- BACK OFF! ;)

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Writing is a gift. Some people just aren't good at it; others make millions doing it. I am the expressive type and needed an avenue to voice my angst, happiness, pleasures and fears. I feel the that the world lacks love. Passion seems to fade as days go by. That is discomforting to a person like me.
I have always been the type to give all of myself in every situation. I love deeply, hurt easily, and you can see my emotions all over my face. I have been through the ringer lately. I am trying to plan a wedding with two very split families, all the while wondering if I am causing more harm than good. Not many people seem to understand this because they have never seen the type of family I have.
I know that this wedding will be fun, and the honeymoon even more so. However, will all the tears and anger that I have seen caused by ONE DAY be worth it in the end? I sure hope so.