Monday, January 30, 2012

How Do I Sleep So Much?

I must be exhausted beyond belief. I slept far more than I planned to this weekend, but I think it really helped me. I took a nap at home for about 2 hours on Saturday, then I went over to my mother's house to hang out with her. When I got there, she was snuggled up on the couch with her adorabe cat, Reilly, and said she had been trying to take a nap. At first, I thought ok, well you nap, I will hang out around the house until you are ready to wake up. Then, as I got comfy in my own little chair, I fell asleep, too. We slept for another 2 hours. I was astonished, I knew I loved sleep, and had been lacking good rest due to my schedule, but I had no idea the human body would allow that much sleep.

We hung out for the next 4 hours and enjoyed conversation, food and of course, WINE! I absolutely love wine nights with my mommy. Such a great time to vent and relax. I spent all day Sunday cleaning, and getting myself and my household ready for the week... I don't like this weekly process, as it normally includes laundry, dishes, groceries and vaccuuming. AGH

I must relapse to Friday now, because it did not include the theme as listed above. Friday night I went out with my husband, Heather and Daniel. (Daniel-brother-in-law; Heather- Daniel's wife and really great friend). It was Heather's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! We started out the evening at The Melting Pot in Addison. Food was actually much better than I had anticipated, and I really enjoyed the experience. I ate pretty heavily, but still felt good enough to move around. Our next stop was the bowling alley 300. Now 300 isn't youre typical bowling alley. They have a huge bar, arcade, pool tables, upscale cuisine, club music playing and TVs EVERYWHERE. I am NOT a good bowler, I try, but I am not very good. My hand-eye coordination has never been what I wanted it to be. I did enjoy watching everyone else play, however, I just don't think it is for me, and I much rather be a spectator.

We then decided to go out to a bar, after too much deliberation that was truly frustrating. We went to a place called Rocking Parrodise, Heather did not like or understand the name (tee hee), but it ended up being a pretty good time. Eventhough the band was difficult to listen too, and it wasn't our favorite establishment, we had fun, drank just enough and got to be there for our friend's birthday!

Side note: Running in to a good friend from middle/high school can sometimes be awkward. I ran in to a friend and got to chat with him for a bit, and it wasn't awkward or anything. Very nice!

Thursday, January 26, 2012

It Takes Loving Deeply to Hate Deeply!

I read an interesting blog today. It spoke of a woman who has been married for 12 years. She, coincidentally, is from Texas. She wrote a letter to a book author. This letter was titled "I HATE MY HUSBAND!" The author explained that she gets letters like these all of the time. She continued an e-mail exchange trying to find out why this woman would say such a thing.

Turns out that her lusting for others, anger, uncomfortability and want to escape all stemmed from BOREDOM! Why do women get so bored, and do men equally get bored in this way? It turns out, YES! Everyone gets bored, but this feeling of hate comes because you love so much.

If you are hurt or upset by someone you don't care about, it is much easier to move on and not hold any hostility whatsoever. I find this very true. When people I barely know, or expect very little from me disappoint me, I may be angry for a short period of time, but tend to let it go quite quickly. Conversely, I get the most irritated when someone I love lets me down, hurts me or causes some sort of disruption in my life.

I am a person of passion and with immense love, comes immense ire. We are drawn to our "opposites" so to speak, but in reality it is the things you have in common that steer you toward success.

My husband and I grew up in a similar way; we each have 3 siblings, are from the DFW area, support our military and have separated parents. These things remind us of our dedication to family, and how important it is to be with your support system, and become a support system. We are however vastly different. He is an avid hunter and fisherman, love working outdoors, is great at cooking, already has one child and has a very volatile past. I on the other hand had a relatively simple past, don't hunt or fish very well or often, love working in doors, can't cook for crap and am scared to death of having children.

So how do we make these things work? We love, we fight, we string our life together with caution. Sometimes you have to look at everything in a different light, try and see things through other people's eyes.

I hope to never become bored. I hope to be in a life of constant change and growth. I know we all have our problems, but sometimes they can just be solved with love and compassion.

Leave a positive impact on those you encounter. You will make a difference!

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Infinity is Open to Your Sight

I saw this quote today, while riding the train, and immediately I was perplexed. Can all people really see infinity, or is this a concept not grasped by all.


At first it didn't make much sense. Everyone has their own vision of said infinity, but some people are so limited in their scope that I didn't see how this could apply to everyone. There are people in this world with small minds, limited scope and minimal experience. People that never live in more than one town, or travel beyond their countries borders, and even more people only view the world through their own eyes, and are unyielding to the possibility of things not being the way they see it. Is that THEIR infinity then.


What is inifinite? Dictionary Definition: unlimited; immeasurable; unbounded;  having no limits or boundaries in time, space, extent, or magnitude.


So in this quote there is already contradiction, because sight is limited by what you allow youself to see. That could also be the exact meaning of this quote. If you allow yourself the experience to see limitless, boundless and exponential things, you are seeing what is infinite to you...


Okay, enough on that. I could go around in circles for hours about how that quote has changed my view on closed-mindedness; censorship and the like.


I had quite a weekend; spent a lot of it sleeping. I need to catch up on sleep during the weekends. My work week and workout schedule do not allow me to do much sleeping or even relaxing for that matter. Friday night I hit up the gym for an intense cardio workout, watched a little television, cuddled with my animals and went to bed. Uneventful, but exactly what I needed. Saturday, I did a little cleaning, walked my dog and then took a nap. Saturday night was date night for me and the hubbs. Off to Andiamo's (little Italian place in Addison with exquisite food) where we enjoyed huge, stiff cocktails, amazing baked clams, and a delectable lobster bisque. The entrees were not as impressive. Both were over salted, mine so much so that I returned it. Matt's seafood linguine (or whatever they called it) was very good, lobster, clams and crab cooked to perfection, but again the sauce was salty.


Sunday started off pretty good. Trip to the grocery store went smoothly, but trying to find dinner side items that aren't starchy or sugary is a little trying. Then, however the day seemed to take a turn for the worse. An argument began to brew between Matt and I, how it started I cannot even recall (can anyone ever really remember), but it was a blow out. A lot of things were said that probably shouldn't have been. I think arguments truly need a mute button. It is not good to be so hurtful to someone you love. I have grown up biting my tongue and trying my best not to insult people because I know once words are said, you cannot take them back. There is no rewind or magic eraser.


The great thing about this argument was that we got through it. We made it safely back to a hug and agreed to better our relationship and grow ourselves. We have a long way to go, but there is a lot of love there.


My how we have changed!


I hope everyone can experience a lot of love. It hurts and sucks and is amazing all at once.

Monday, January 9, 2012

To Be Honest

There are different types of honesty. Can we agree on that? There is the whole truth, the half truth, partial truths and then attempted truth.

Whole truth- I dont think this is reasonable to expect from anyone. When it comes to telling a story, you will never hear all the details, but who really wants all the extra any way. Most people look for short, immediate, precise news. The whole truth would not only include all the details, but an unbiased opinion... Almost impossible to find!

Half truth/Partial Truth- I will put these in the same category. You will get these most of the time. We have heard it a thousand times; there are always three truths- Person #1's truth, Person #2's truth and then the real story. That is because most people tell a truth that sounds good in their head. They can do this by adding attitude or slanting words to a conversation they had, emphasizing certain parts of a story or changing words here and there to fit the point they are trying to make.

Attempted Truth- This to me is what a lot of people do, and end up setting themselves up for failure. Telling people things like- I will be here by a certain time, or have this done by a certain time; setting themselves up and someone else up for an expectation- when this expectation is not met, you have failed them; which, in a way, is lying.

Anyway, most people struggle with the truth, in one way or another, This, however, is not abnormal these days. Noone seems to know fact from fiction, and will believe nearly everything they see.

I hope to have honest eyes, thoughts and words.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Holidays Are Over! Do YOU still feel loved?

Okay, so it came to my attention (by way of social networking) that people are pleased with themselves if they can do a couple of things...
1. Write a very sweet holiday message to all of their friends at once
2. Get together for nostalgic holiday traditions with family; or old friends will suffice
3. Make one, if not a dozen, new years resolutions (GUILTY)
4. Suggest that others do better for themselves
5. Make fun of themselves in spite of actual humiliation

I have done a few of these things myself, but have noticed that much of that happy, loving spirit has already died, and it is only 3 days in to the New Year! This can't be right. Are we really such a jaded/angry world out there? I know there are plenty of negatives in the world, but shouldn't there be an all around sense for love and compassion between people?

Okay, I am a little crazt. I guess because deep down I love people, want the best for myself and others, and honestly try not to always put myself first. What a phenomenon. Maybe it will catch on... However, I fear the opposite will happen. People will continue to distance themselves from love, honesty and true connection.

How do we become cohesive, anyway? Are we supposed to be cohesive as a human race, or is it better to show discrepency, dissonance and indifference in some cases? I probably won't find all the answers to these questions, but I think I am ok with that.

Here are a few things that make me happy for the time being- I will try to keep my holiday cheer all year round.
Nieces!!! Reese on the left! Emma on the Right!!!! I am the luckiest Aunt EVER!


Homemade Christmas Deserts!! (I told you I would use berries of some sort!)


Puppies New and Old!! Jessie Jane (above) family dog since I was about 12
New puppies Tank (I shall call him Doug) and Cleo (named after me- Casey Leigh) these are my Dad's new great dane pups that I cannot WAIT to meet

And of course- HOLIDAY NUTCRACKERS in the staircase... Don't know why, but they make me smile!